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| User: | musemom (6724862)  Musings of a Musemom
Can you tell... where I'm going to? The Life and Times of My Life and Times |
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| Name: | MontanaMuse | |
| Location: | Montana, United States | |
| Birthdate: | 1955-06-02 | |
| Bio: | I am a child of God. It may seem a bold statement, but I know who I am, most of the time. I am the wife of Musedad also known as JB, mother of ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} violalee and to her husband RP, daughter of Joe and Maxine.. I am a Latter Day Saint. I am active in my church, JB is the President of our new (Jan 2006) little branch right now, and so church takes up much of the space in my life, though it has found a new place to meet rather than in my basement.I am still trying to figure out who I want to be when I grow up. I am waiting for my emotional age to catch up with the age of my body, because... other than when my body betrays me with pain, I still feel like I did when in high school. Except... there's not as much drama in my life, I'm not as worried about how I look, or how you look, fashion carries no concern for me, I have a greater sense of the consequences of my choices, worry less about what others think about what I do, I have learned to accept you for who you are, I've come to accept my past as past. I have learned to love myself for who I am and learned to care less about who you think I am. And now that I think about it, I reckon my mind isn't as young as it once was either. Oh well, it goes better with my body. I live with the chronic pain of Fribromyalgia, Myofacial Pain Syndrom and and CFS along with all the extras that go with them, not the least of which is depression and serious insommnia. I learned from those that raised me to view life through the dark glass of pessimism due to the fact that there was much in my early life that was dark and destructive. And while I am working on changing that and finding the optimist that dwells within me somewhere, there have been times of late where my pessimism has served me well in preparing me for the worst. There has been much drama in my life lately due to my being diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer (Aug 2006). I am through the worst of it and now begin the process of becoming a survivor rather than having cancer. It will be 10 years before I can claim the status of Cancer Survivor. I am still trying to keep the drama to a minimum because drama particularly when combined with melodrama, it is just more than I care to deal with at this stage in my life. My journal is just that MY journal. You are a guest in it. I have had much time for introspection as to who I am writing in this space for. My entries at one time were colored somewhat by the fact that someone other than myself would be reading them, an event that has never been allowed to happen since I started journaling in 1983. However, this is changing. I am back to not trying to be entertaining and becoming more historical. It is a journal of how I am surviving the life that has been given me. What I will do with it and how I accomplish my primary goal in life... to return to the place of my Father, with the people I love most around me. After all... that's what it's all about.  Where I've been in the United States... create your own visited states map or check out these Google Hacks. | |
| Memories:: | 34 entries | |
| Pictures: | over 40 public | |
| Interests: | 46: answer to prayer, back rubs, beading, being a hermit, blessings, chronic pain control, clouds, crochet, cross stitch, dark chocolate, eternity, family, fibromyalgia, fly-fishing, gloomy days, heavenly father, homemade socks, honesty, hot springs, jesus christ, journal keeping, kindness, knitting, learning, mac's, mormon doctrine, musedad, mysteries of life, oil painting, prayer, promises, puzzles, reading, really cold water, revelation, romance, scriptures, spinning wool, surprises, tatting, tinytim, traveling, truth, understanding, warm towels, weather | |
| Schools: | None listed | |
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| Account type: | Paid Account | |
